Was His Mom’s Death the Beginning of his Mental Agnony? Kanye’s Ascent Into Darkness
by G. Brown
The Thanksgiving holiday around the West home is one hard to imagine filled with joy after disappointing news that Kanye would not be released from UCLA medical center to come home for the holiday.
West was admitted to the facility four days ago after erratic behavior and ranting at his concert last weekend. Initially, reports said the rapper was suffering from “exhaustion and dehydration”. But TMZ says “Kanye’s doctor told cops he was suffering from a temporary psychosis brought on by sleep deprivation and extreme dehydration, but we’re told the problems go much deeper.” The article goes on to say, “A well-connected Kanye source tells us Kaye’s psychological problems are significant enough so that his insurance policy—which covers lost profits and financial obligations for cancelled concerts due illness—will almost certainly cover the losses for the 21 concerts he’s cancelled.”
As TRN told you in Part of 1 of our story, Kanye’s Ascent Into Darkness: West Under Psych Evaluation at UCLA, Kanye canceled the remainder of his Saint Pablo tour after fans witnessed a meltdown while the artist tried to perform last weekend in where he was only on stage for about 30 minutes and kept launching into rants about everything from the media, to Trump to Beyonce.
Kanye sang about three songs and left the stage. He was admitted for the psych eval a couple of days later. Was this a man who is simply overworked and stressed…or is it a genius mind losing its grip on reality?
Kanye’s life jettisoned from a total unknown to known the whole world over. When he first came on the scene in the Atlanta Georgia at the age of 19, Kanye was already doing his thing free styling and causing people to take notice. In 1998, he became an official musical artist selling his beat to producer Jermaine Dupri for his debut album “Life in 1472”. From there, he shot straight to stardom it seems…inking a deal with Roc-A-Fella Records and dropping his first official mix-tape “Get Well Soon” in 2002.
His Mom Donda West was obviously close to her son and a guiding light in his life. When she died following surgery in 2007, fans seem to think that’s when Kanye’s life went from a dream to a bizarre nightmare of sudden outbursts and rants. In an interview with Q magazine, when asked what did he sacrifice for his success, Kanye answered in two words…”My mom.” Kanye took the guilt of his mom’s death and put it all on his own shoulders. West went on to say in the interview, “If I had never moved to L.A. she’d be alive. I don’t want to go far into it because it will bring me to tears.”
After Donda’s death at age 58, it seems Kanye’s life was turned upside down. He and fiancee Alexis Phifer called off their engagement and parted ways on good terms. Soon Kanye was coupled with his new love and current wife Kim Kardashian who some fans think has put him under what many call the Kardashian curse that seems to befall men…especially Black men…who become involved with the Kardasians/Jenners. But those close to Kanye say that Kim is a calming influence in his life like his mother Donda was. Kanye seemed ecstatic over the births of his two children and often praises his wife publicly. So how could a man with everything he ever dreamed of be falling apart?
Kanye may believe that a curse is indeed hanging over his head, but the curse may be his success. He’s already made it clear he thinks his mom was a victim of that success…could Kanye also think the success that has brought him so much money, fame, a family— is a curse that’s killing his happiness, his sanity?
And Kanye could also the victim of his own drive. Studies have proven that stress can negatively impact the brain. Days and weeks of traveling around the world, pressured to come up with another hit or to maintain your place at the top of the charts could have been too much for Kanye. Managing one’s emotions and keeping it together while under pressure directly affect how you perform daily functions. Entrepreneur.com quotes a study that says top performers stay aware of their emotions, keep away from toxic people, set up boundaries and refuse to let others limit their joy. Entertainers like Kanye have a harder time controlling all these factors because they’re around so many people all the time.
Some of his fans don’t care the reason behind Kanye’s eractic behavior lately. They and other other celebs are deeply worried about the rapper’s mental state and praying for him to get better.
Kanye’s rants had become as famous as his music. Interrupting other artists while they were onstage, insisting that he’s going to run for President in 2020, may have been more than publicity seeking antics of a star out of control, but a disturbing cry for help from a man who’s ascent to fame came with a price higher than realize.