Ms. Black Hollywood
For years we’ve all witnessed the decline of Mariah Carey “The Superstar”.
As fans we didn’t know what her personal issues were but we knew saw her struggle to keep it together.
The songstress revealed that she’s been suffering with Bipolar II disorder for almost twenty years. She was first admitted in 2001 after a mental and physical breakdown. That certainly sheds light on some of the outburst, breakups or even performances.
The megastar says that she could not admit it to herself until her life truly began to fall apart. Carey told People magazine, “Until recently I lived in denial and isolation and in constant fear someone would expose me. It was too heavy a burden to carry and I simply couldn’t do that anymore. I sought and received treatment, I put positive people around me and I got back to doing what I love —- writing songs and making music.”
After years of denial, the pop sensation is now taking medication regularly and focused on recovery. Carey admits,
“For a long time I thought I had a severe sleep disorder,” Carey explained. “But it wasn’t normal insomnia and I wasn’t lying awake counting sheep. I was working and working and working … I was irritable and in constant fear of letting people down. It turns out that I was experiencing a form of mania. Eventually I would just hit a wall. I guess my depressive episodes were characterized by having very low energy. I would feel so lonely and sad —- even guilty that I wasn’t doing what I needed to be doing for my career.
“I’m just in a really good place right now, where I’m comfortable discussing my struggles with bipolar II disorder,” she told People. “I’m hopeful we can get to a place where the stigma is lifted from people going through anything alone. It can be incredibly isolating. It does not have to define you and I refuse to allow it to define me or control me.”